Monday, August 31, 2009

The Bottom Rail

“Sometimes, if you stand on the bottom rail of a bridge and lean over to watch the river slipping slowly away beneath you, you will suddenly know everything there is to be known.”
- Winnie The Pooh

Clarity in life is often found where we least expect it. For instance, when life is overwhelming. Beyond anything I believe I can survive - a moment will come where instead of crying I am laughing and then it is all better again. How do we so easily move past the un-movable? Well, perhaps I am going insane, I do have the attention span of a three-year-old after all. Perhaps the monotony of the day just got old and so I moved on to something else. Perhaps it is what I call a "stage moment" where I all of a sudden step out of myself and become an audience member watching my own life as a play. You must admit, poop explosions in the middle of the night, children screaming in harmony and financial tetris do have a certain comedic appeal. Perhaps...but I prefer to think that I just took a step onto the bottom rail. It is clearer there, my mini mountain top. From there I can watch all of this "life" that really doesn't matter float away and realize just how fast it all goes. I can become a kid again. Together we fight dragons, make friends with pirates and play pooh sticks until we all get grumpy and it is time for hot chocolate and bed.

This blog is mostly for my own benefit. So I can take a moment every so often to step onto the rail. It puts things into perspective. I will also use it to proclaim to my world my victories in child rearing, living "green" on a dime, fitness, eating well and whatever else I see lazily floating by.

I hope and pray that by taking this moment when I can I will...by God's grace....in my own little space I call home and life "know everything there is to be known."